Why do I blog?

I've been doing much looking at and reading of blogs. I find joy, peace, laughter, inspiration, valuable information to be learned and company, kindred spirithood in what I read. There is so much I did not learn when I was younger, when I was first stepping out into the world as a young adult. I made choices, knowing things I wanted for myself, having dreams and aspirations deep within myself, yet not knowing what makes such things come to fruition and I come from beloved people that wanted much different for themselves (or was it accepting a lot in life, not walking through painful gained understanding and firm believing in oneself) than I have and do.

In blogging, I become clearer in my own understanding. I have found, first of all, having general ideas and hopes in my head makes attaining such difficult, if not impossible. It is all fuzzy. It certainly received the three children I deeply love and from whom I humbly learn and for whom I strive and want to be better, role model better, and provide better. My journey has given me much experience. It has given me obstacles to overcome and the deep satisfaction of knowing of what I am made when I do and continue to overcome and when I see what I can build.

I want to believe, I want to hope. I want to pursue my aspirations. I do not want hard work, the world's hectic place, anyone's ignorance or issues or thinking less of others by criteria to hold me back or hold me down. I want a family for myself and my children. I want a home that holds us and nurtures us, providing a nest of respite to come into, out from the world. I also want to go out into the world, full in heart and spirit, to love and guide others in their healing and believing.

I do not think I will want to blog  to make money. Would I like to develop a voice and skill to write a book? Yes! I do long to be known. I have to say to myself that is a part of why I blog. I am in process. It is only by giving this process multiple outlets it will come to be for me and mine.