I think I've been up since 0730. Ben woke me up and, as he is sleeping in his bed for the most part, he is getting up early. My clock was unplugged from rearranging my bedroom and it is still not quite orderly, but it is functional. I have gotten a good dent in my laundry. I have supper ready to cook. I was in the yard, trying again to start a fire with the fallen wood, yard work debris I am making in caring for neglected planting, but I think the wood is till too damp. I played with my camera a little before bringing Ben in for a snack. I feel a bit physically tired and my mind has no real flow at the moment and, I think the band aid on my left index finger is interfering with my flow of words in head to type. Ben is also standing right next to me, watching the Tigger video that is on in the living room.
Eliza is next door, hanging out with Valerie. Kayla is probably on her way home from her SAT prep class. Phil is coming down for the night to see us and help me tomorrow and he left to go get her in Cambridge instead of her having to take the T to Alewife to be picked up.
Do people that create, the things they create and that others look at and admire, do they feel tired sometimes while they are working and it feels off? How do I go about finding some consistency to blog, take pictures and work on my house projects that are in my head? I guess some days are higher energy than others, some are more inspired than others.
My life is very ordinary .... raising my 3 kids at the ages they are, on my own, is pretty much that. I actually think ordinary is soothing. I think I miss the puttering part of my days I had so many, many years ago and that is why I feel amiss.
I am glad spring weather is returning. I want to try to remember to take my camera with me in the car wherever I am driving in case I see a wonderful picture to capture.
I was thinking thoughts about this blog concept. Is it becoming the replacement to old fashioned friendships? Is it the way adults chat, feed each one another's hearts and souls? I have been reading blogs, love them, love their pictures, but do not talk to anyone else about the culture of this world. I see all the advertisements, buttons on many blogs and wonder is that what it gets to be about. I have nothing to make to sell on Etsy. I do not have enough time to work on a house project much at one time, photograph it and chronicle it here. I love reading and looking at these things, though. I think I am going to cut down on buying magazines ... to save money, the environment and get my fix for beauty via the net more. It seems magazines are getting thinner .... Country Living is not what it once was.
I love beauty, to create ... I think most of my time is creating long term ... raising my kids, working as a nurse at the two psych schools.
Well, I think it is time to switch laundry loads and get back to more practical things.
Steph
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