time not used as I had hoped

Freddie came for Ben. I needed Kayla's help in getting access to some cash. I drove Freddie, Ben and Kayla past the house I looked at yesterday. Freddie immediately saw it has new windows, a new roof. Men have such practical perspectives I lack. I drove them back home and had to get Eliza. On the way, I got a call and talked to that person about important matters. I then called Phil.

I am stuck at several places. I have traveled this journey to know well enough that the unstuck comes in its own time when the time is right. I know it is about learning thing(s), about all things being in place. Yet, I am a root-digger and I cannot stand the feeling of being stuck.

So, I also need to write as a part of my process of moving forward. And,  this is where I write while also knowing not all details nor matters are for disclosure to the world wide web. Ughhh!

I took a picture earlier today .... There it is! I was in the house with Ben, needing to be creative, to see something, anything in a way I do not typically view my world. I saw that the Christmas cactus had a few nice blooms and I do really like the picture I took of the cyclamen blooms. I wondered how to take a picture, differently. So, the little pot and the small votive holder went onto the island counter. The counter does not look as nice as it is. The pic is not great. I see I have things to learn about lighting and things to learn and experience about cameras and varying abilities. But, the cool thing is, I see the need to learn, that there are things unlearned and unseen and uncreated by me. Just like I now know how a wide angle lens made the rooms of that house look some much better than they are. And, I am feeling the let down of how cute and cozy that house looks on the outside, where it is and the reality of the size of the rooms. Its photographs do not blend with the whole picture of the house for me ... that house has pieces of what I want, but it is not the package. And, there may be many more packages to see - one, a package just for me.

Whew! I just got a little unstuck about the whole house, owning one, renting this one issue. That's how we get unstuck - tiny bits at a time, seeing tiny bits at a time. Slow and steady is how one ought to arrive at decisions for one's soul. Susan (my local Susan) would love this experiential understanding of her phase of encouragement for me.

I can close this entry and eat some pasta. I can say I feel grateful for the bits of essence, wisdom given to me by Phil, Clive, Joel, Susan, Susan, Patty,  and Freddie. I could not even begin to articulate to each of them how they have blessed me today, but I believe spirit knows and carries the good forth!