calm

This is not all about being calm or a calm time. I am feeling very calm at this moment, today. I haven't written for some time. It has been busy and I may have been in a period of thinking, examining and trying to solve and not feeling inspired. I do not feel any specific inspiration today, but I have some time and I strongly feel I want to connect with a person. It is the holiday season. I am not stressed or unhappy about how busy I have been with work and running the kids to appointments. Yet, there is a part of me which wonders if I am to be creative in some sense does it require daily or almost daily time to type. I also know I want this blog to be more visually creative at some point, but I lack the computer skills and time yet. I did get a new laptop and spent a great deal of time clearing out emails, putting some in folders, getting some work on the desktop, some of my kids' reports and pictures that have been emailed to me over time in one place.

I had Ben's IEP meeting yesterday and I do really feel like the fog of confusion in lifting. I did not go brain dead in the meeting and this morning I began reading the IEP, was actually understanding a lot of it and taking some notes.

Eliza's IEP meeting was earlier and I feel she is fine, but I am not certain in the sense I feel I understand.

I have no Christmas tree yet. I was contemplating going out with the kids, but they do not seem terribly eager. I love trees, but right now I feel I would be doing all the work of it for none of us that care. It is not that we are in bug hum bug mode. I think we are finding a settling peace in our lives. Stop and Shop had what looks like tree tops in small water saucers. Years-ago-Steph would like would of those decorated in the kitchen, in bedrooms, in addition to a larger tree in the living room. I would like it now, but I do not have the energy, time and question spending money on trees. So, should I run to S & S to see if there is one tree to be our one tree or should I let it go and see if a day yet comes I feel like a tree? I have waited to put up a tree in years gone by.